I walk down the parking lot. The wind is cold, biting through my jean jacket. It's not enough for the weather, but I really don't care. I'm not planning to be out and about much. I catch sight of a friend's car and smile a little to myself. Some of these cars are familiar--most are not. I find myself relieved that this is the last time I will be making this walk. I'm confident about the decision that has been made. There's no regret that I won't have to do this again.
I am infinitely grateful for the time I have spent here, for the experiences I have gained, and the friends I have made. For all its trial and difficulty, I am so glad to have had this experience. It was a good choice for the moment, and I don't regret it, but I don't regret where I'm headed now, either. I am at peace with the choices I've made, with the battle I've fought. But that period is over, and I am ready to move onto something new. Take some time to rest, recoup, and prepare for tomorrow's battle, whatever tomorrow, in all its uncertainties, happens to bring me.
A thousand thank yous to the people who made my stay in Dickinson incredible and worth while. There are far too many of you to count, just know that each and every person I have come in contact with over the last seven months has had an impact, and I am thankful to all of you. I will miss you the most, of everything that I am leaving behind, but I am ready to move on. I will miss you. I love you all. I will keep in touch. I promise. :)
Thank you so much for the fun times and the experiences. You're the most fantastic people. I love you. :)
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
Wednesday, March 16, 2011
Immediately...
I was just browsing through my Bible and happened across some verses I had highlighted, presumably an extremely long time ago, in Matthew, where Jesus walked on water, and a few verses, one word in particular, caught me eye.
and then:
Do you guys see the theme? IMMEDIATELY said to them. IMMEDIATELY reached out and caught him. Immediately.
I don't know why, but that's just comforting. God doesn't allow us to flounder around. His aid is instantaneous. And my teen study Bible had the note that doubt doesn't drive Jesus away. He's there regardless of whether we are strong or weak. It's sort of, just because we doubt God, he doesn't ever doubt us. He is there no matter what. If we walk away, He will still be waiting when we come back.
I just love that immediately, though. We don't have to wait for God, or at least for His comfort. We are always trying to wait for His perfect timing, because I'm finding that God's schedule is rarely mine, but His comfort, His guidance, His peace, His love...instantaneous. We don't have to wait for it. It's there right now, and it will be in a millisecond and a minute and an hour and a day from now. All we have to do is reach out.
And Know that God is reaching out for us.
That is a comfort to me, that even when I doubt and fear and tremble, God is reaching for me, even when I am not reaching for Him...
xoxo,
Erika Rose <3
"It's a ghost!" they said, and cried out in fear. But Jesus immediately said to them: "Take courage! It is I!"
and then:
"But when he saw the wind, he was afraid and, beginning to sink, cried out, "Lord, save me!"
Immediately, Jesus reached out His hand and caught him."
Do you guys see the theme? IMMEDIATELY said to them. IMMEDIATELY reached out and caught him. Immediately.
I don't know why, but that's just comforting. God doesn't allow us to flounder around. His aid is instantaneous. And my teen study Bible had the note that doubt doesn't drive Jesus away. He's there regardless of whether we are strong or weak. It's sort of, just because we doubt God, he doesn't ever doubt us. He is there no matter what. If we walk away, He will still be waiting when we come back.
I just love that immediately, though. We don't have to wait for God, or at least for His comfort. We are always trying to wait for His perfect timing, because I'm finding that God's schedule is rarely mine, but His comfort, His guidance, His peace, His love...instantaneous. We don't have to wait for it. It's there right now, and it will be in a millisecond and a minute and an hour and a day from now. All we have to do is reach out.
And Know that God is reaching out for us.
"Immediately, Jesus reached out for his hand and caught him."
That is a comfort to me, that even when I doubt and fear and tremble, God is reaching for me, even when I am not reaching for Him...
xoxo,
Erika Rose <3
Wednesday, March 9, 2011
Black and White
Well, these are my thoughts for the day.
I'm starting to think that as Christians, we tend to see things in black and white, right or wrong. And in a sense, things are pretty black and white. As far as do's and don'ts, the Bible is pretty clear. But I think sometimes we get too set in that mindset.
You see, my thoughts for the day are, when I look at a lot of people, non-Christians especially, and see people who consistently sin, I'm starting to see not so much the sin as the hurt that causes them to sin.
Don't get me wrong, I don't think that the fact that somebody hurts is an excuse to sin, or makes it not wrong, but I do feel it changes the way we need to look at them or minister to them.
The way I see it is, all men are without excuse. They KNOW what they're doing is wrong. They don't need us to tell them that what they're doing is wrong--they already know! At which point, I think we need to ask ourselves, why don't they care?
I think a lot of times people sin, particularly with sins like substance abuse or sleeping around, because they hurt and they don't know what else to do. In which case they don't need us to tell them what's wrong with how they're living. Rather, I think they need to see an alternative lifestyle in our lives. And I think, too, we need to make a point of loving on them, rather than judging them. What makes us any different from the rest of the world if we judge them exactly the same? We're supposed to love people, and Christians have this reputation for being judgmental. Not that it's true, but I think we need to be all the more aware of the fact that people are predisposed to thinking we're judgmental.
I think it's a lot more important that we love people than judge them. And I think we need to be building relationships with them. Who's going to listen to a random person on the street telling them they're going to Hell? It may be true, but not everything that's true needs to be said all the time. And they're much more likely to listen to you say that, if that's what needs to be said, if you have a relationship with them, if you've built a friendship and they have past reasons to believe that you love them and that they can trust you, and that you honestly have their best interest at heart.
I feel like sometimes we look down on the people who do befriend people who are "sinners." But honestly, I believe that's what needs to happen.
My last thought is, who are we to judge? First of all, we don't know ANYTHING about this person or where they're from. Like I say, circumstance doesn't keep something from being wrong, but sometimes it sheds a little light on what's happening. And 2, it's not like we're perfect, either. We are rarely in a position to judge.
I'm not saying that sometimes we don't need to tell somebody that what they're doing is wrong. Sometimes, it's what they need to hear. But I think in dealing with people, and in ministering to people, it's not actually as black and white as we tend to think. You just have to take it case by case, but I think first and foremost, we need to love people. Love first, and if you must, judge second. But always, ALWAYS love first. And make sure they KNOW that you love them and that you are "judging" them BECAUSE you care about them.
I think you're bound to have a lot more impact if people know you care about them.
Those are my ponderings for the day.
xoxo,
Erika Rose
I'm starting to think that as Christians, we tend to see things in black and white, right or wrong. And in a sense, things are pretty black and white. As far as do's and don'ts, the Bible is pretty clear. But I think sometimes we get too set in that mindset.
You see, my thoughts for the day are, when I look at a lot of people, non-Christians especially, and see people who consistently sin, I'm starting to see not so much the sin as the hurt that causes them to sin.
Don't get me wrong, I don't think that the fact that somebody hurts is an excuse to sin, or makes it not wrong, but I do feel it changes the way we need to look at them or minister to them.
The way I see it is, all men are without excuse. They KNOW what they're doing is wrong. They don't need us to tell them that what they're doing is wrong--they already know! At which point, I think we need to ask ourselves, why don't they care?
I think a lot of times people sin, particularly with sins like substance abuse or sleeping around, because they hurt and they don't know what else to do. In which case they don't need us to tell them what's wrong with how they're living. Rather, I think they need to see an alternative lifestyle in our lives. And I think, too, we need to make a point of loving on them, rather than judging them. What makes us any different from the rest of the world if we judge them exactly the same? We're supposed to love people, and Christians have this reputation for being judgmental. Not that it's true, but I think we need to be all the more aware of the fact that people are predisposed to thinking we're judgmental.
I think it's a lot more important that we love people than judge them. And I think we need to be building relationships with them. Who's going to listen to a random person on the street telling them they're going to Hell? It may be true, but not everything that's true needs to be said all the time. And they're much more likely to listen to you say that, if that's what needs to be said, if you have a relationship with them, if you've built a friendship and they have past reasons to believe that you love them and that they can trust you, and that you honestly have their best interest at heart.
I feel like sometimes we look down on the people who do befriend people who are "sinners." But honestly, I believe that's what needs to happen.
My last thought is, who are we to judge? First of all, we don't know ANYTHING about this person or where they're from. Like I say, circumstance doesn't keep something from being wrong, but sometimes it sheds a little light on what's happening. And 2, it's not like we're perfect, either. We are rarely in a position to judge.
I'm not saying that sometimes we don't need to tell somebody that what they're doing is wrong. Sometimes, it's what they need to hear. But I think in dealing with people, and in ministering to people, it's not actually as black and white as we tend to think. You just have to take it case by case, but I think first and foremost, we need to love people. Love first, and if you must, judge second. But always, ALWAYS love first. And make sure they KNOW that you love them and that you are "judging" them BECAUSE you care about them.
I think you're bound to have a lot more impact if people know you care about them.
Those are my ponderings for the day.
xoxo,
Erika Rose
Saturday, February 5, 2011
My Rant of the Night Continued
"Kay, I don't feel like I'm one of those high maintenance girls who requires Herculean efforts from her friends. In fact, I'd be inclined to say that I'm pretty low maintenance. But I'm low maintenance, not no maintenance. A little effort is nice. Friendships are two way streets. Okay. That's my rant of the night. I'm done now. :)"
That was my Facebook, status, but I lied. I'm not done ranting.
Tonight, I am just so frustrated. I guess I'm just feeling super lonely and a wee bit jealous. I'm strong enough to admit that. My best friend is engaged. My two other best friends had dates tonight as well. I went to basketball games and since then have pretty much sat at home, doing nothing, because everybody either had plans or couldn't go out. I'm not complaining about that. It happens.
But I am frustrated with people, and society as a whole today. People are so inherently...well, flakey, I guess. I've been let down. A lot. And it's not that these people have let me down--I understand that they're human, and they're going to let me down. It's inevitable. And I know I'm going to let them down, too. We're human, and we're imperfect. It's that flake factor that gets to me, though. It's that lack of willingness to make an effort.
People think friendships will still be there if you don't put any effort into them. And with some friends, it's true you can go years without talking and pick up right where you left off. But there's not the trust factor there. I don't feel that those friendships go very deep. If you want someone to rely on, you need to put some effort into it. I don't think people understand that.
I feel that in some ways, I have very fair weather friends. I feel that some of them only come around when they need something from me. Never mind when I need something from them. I've gotten myself a reputation as being the go-to girl when you need a shoulder to cry on, or whatever. And I love that, truly, I do. I love people, I care about them, I'm somebody they can trust who will be there for them every time. But even some of my Christian friends are never really willing to do the same.
As my facebook status said, I don't require huge amount of effort, but friendships are DEFINITELY two-way streets. You have to GIVE, too, not just take. And we're living in a society of takers, and nobody really cares about anything except themselves.
I also think that people have some ludicrous idea that I've got it all together, that I'm happy all the time. And that is the image I put off, so I guess I can't really blame them for thinking that. But the fact of the matter is, yes, I am a generally happy person, probably happier than most, but nobody is THAT happy. I'm just not comfortable showing people that, because I feel like there's so few people that I can trust.
So I suppose my prayer is that you would read this and resolve to make an effort, not just for me, but for ALL your friends. Maybe ask that person who's always happy how they are, and if you feel like they're lying, tell them to tell you the truth, because I think that's the most common lie ever told: I'm fine." Go the extra mile. Be willing to put out. And be aware of the fact that you get what you give.
NOW I am done ranting for the night.
These are post-scripts. Just a couple examples of the reason I LOVE Tenth Avenue North. They have a song for everything.
That was my Facebook, status, but I lied. I'm not done ranting.
Tonight, I am just so frustrated. I guess I'm just feeling super lonely and a wee bit jealous. I'm strong enough to admit that. My best friend is engaged. My two other best friends had dates tonight as well. I went to basketball games and since then have pretty much sat at home, doing nothing, because everybody either had plans or couldn't go out. I'm not complaining about that. It happens.
But I am frustrated with people, and society as a whole today. People are so inherently...well, flakey, I guess. I've been let down. A lot. And it's not that these people have let me down--I understand that they're human, and they're going to let me down. It's inevitable. And I know I'm going to let them down, too. We're human, and we're imperfect. It's that flake factor that gets to me, though. It's that lack of willingness to make an effort.
People think friendships will still be there if you don't put any effort into them. And with some friends, it's true you can go years without talking and pick up right where you left off. But there's not the trust factor there. I don't feel that those friendships go very deep. If you want someone to rely on, you need to put some effort into it. I don't think people understand that.
I feel that in some ways, I have very fair weather friends. I feel that some of them only come around when they need something from me. Never mind when I need something from them. I've gotten myself a reputation as being the go-to girl when you need a shoulder to cry on, or whatever. And I love that, truly, I do. I love people, I care about them, I'm somebody they can trust who will be there for them every time. But even some of my Christian friends are never really willing to do the same.
As my facebook status said, I don't require huge amount of effort, but friendships are DEFINITELY two-way streets. You have to GIVE, too, not just take. And we're living in a society of takers, and nobody really cares about anything except themselves.
I also think that people have some ludicrous idea that I've got it all together, that I'm happy all the time. And that is the image I put off, so I guess I can't really blame them for thinking that. But the fact of the matter is, yes, I am a generally happy person, probably happier than most, but nobody is THAT happy. I'm just not comfortable showing people that, because I feel like there's so few people that I can trust.
So I suppose my prayer is that you would read this and resolve to make an effort, not just for me, but for ALL your friends. Maybe ask that person who's always happy how they are, and if you feel like they're lying, tell them to tell you the truth, because I think that's the most common lie ever told: I'm fine." Go the extra mile. Be willing to put out. And be aware of the fact that you get what you give.
NOW I am done ranting for the night.
These are post-scripts. Just a couple examples of the reason I LOVE Tenth Avenue North. They have a song for everything.
Monday, January 31, 2011
What has God got planned?
So, today I was looking at the website for Ecola Bible School. I've talked about attending Ecola my first year out of high school for quite a while, but I really looked at the site today, and I have to say, I'm even more excited now than I was before. Their doctrinal statement is spot on, and I love the whole purpose of the school, to focus strictly on spiritual growth, instead of readying the student for jobs. (Don't get me wrong, college education is important, too, I just think it's cool that it is STRICTLY a Bible School.) The opportunities offered seem pretty neat, and I'm just quite excited.
I've been thinking a lot over the past few weeks what the future is going to hold for me. I know that this summer, I'm going to be doing a LOT of training horses, which I'm super excited about, in addition to probably some waitressing and work for my dad. Next year, HOPEFULLY I'll be doing correspondance courses and continuing to train and work, ect. POSSIBLY. And I do stress that, because of course, nothing is certain yet. My goal, though, would be to do my school work in the morning, go to work in the after noon and evenings, and then in the winter, when it starts getting cold and there's not a lot of opportunity to be training, basically work double time and try and finish both my junior and senior years in one, and get my diploma after my would-be junior year. That summer, (Summer 2012) I want to spend in Bend, Oregon, volunteering at Crystal Peaks Youth Ranch. (Please, check 'em out!) Basically, they own mostly rescued horses, and are open year round to any and all families for sessions with staff and horses. They're also non-profit, so these families don't pay. Kim Meeder, (the co-founder, along with her husband Troy) have the COOLEST ministry there, guys. Seriously, the things they do, or rather, that God does through them, are really, REALLY cool. She's currently got two books published, Hope Rising and Bridge Called Hope, detailing some of the stories of the youth that she has worked with. They seem like really neat people. They stepped out in faith, bought a completely barren piece of property, and worked really hard to get it to a point where it was inhabitable, really. Anyway, I can't sing their praises enough, in case you couldn't tell. So I want to spend the summer volunteering there as basically a "junior" volunteer, since I'll be seventeen.
I love the ministry at Crystal Peaks, but I also want to go there and gain some experience. You see, I have this dream of starting a ranch, sort of similar to CPYR (Crystal Peaks Youth Ranch). Well, I suppose more similar to Home on the Range, really, for those of you who know what that is. Basically, I want to have a ranch for "troubled" kids. I have a HUGE heart for the kids who come from abusive families, or histories of drug and alcohol abuse. I feel that these kids, particularly in that teen range, get shuffled to the side, because they ARE challenging to work with. I am completely aware of that. I just don't feel that's a reason for them to get kicked to the curb, so to speak. They hit that age where no one will take them, because they have all these problems and issues, and that's where I want to come in.
The dream in and of itself is pretty big, but it would have to start small, just a few students. I want to eventually have separate dorms for guys and girls, with a dorm "parent" for each floor. Eventually, I would absolutely love to have an on campus school, with teachers with a strong relationship with God and experience and/or training specifically toward working with "troubled" youth. Of course, to start off, we would probably stick them into public school, which is what Home on the Range over in Sentinal Butte does.
I have so many ideas and details for this thing, you guys. It's something that's constantly growing and transforming in my mind. All the time, I keep getting more ideas, ways to really make it work, make it plausible, and of course, thinking of all the challenges that would come with starting and maintaining a place like this. The thing is, though, when I first got this crazy idea, it was just a pipe dream. I was like, "This is a really cool idea, but there is no WAY it could happen." That's starting to change though. I'm starting to see the practical ways in which it could be made to work. Like I said, it really is plausible.
I believe that this is a God-given idea, because I really have no reason to have this heart for troubled youth. It's not like I come from that background, it's not like I can relate. It's not like I even KNOW that many kids from "troubled" backgrounds. I can think of only three off the top of my head. Even so, this idea is there and constantly growing, and I have every confidence that if this IS God-given, He will open the doors that are needed.
I'm confident that if this dream is what God is willing for my life, He's going to open the doors, He's going to make it happen. He's going to bring the people into my life that I need to start this place, people with a similar heart and dream and vision. There are so many pitfalls to this idea, SO many things that can (and probably will!) go wrong, but like I said, I know if God is willing it, He WILL see it through.
On the flip side, though, if this is just a pipe dream and NOT what God has in store for me, I know it will be a flop. There is NO WAY a place like this can function without God at its heart. Because of this, I want to be absolutely, 100% certain that this IS God's call on my life, because I don't want to step out in faith, thinking, "Yeah! This is it! God's gonna do great things!" only to have everything crumble and hear Him whisper "No, I'm sending you somewhere else." If this isn't what God wants, the whole thing will just be a complete and utter failure.
Like I said, though, the more time goes on, the more ideas I start to get, the more I feel myself drawn to this ministry. I would love to spend a year at Ecola, and it would be amazing to work at Hom eon the Range for a time, to gather ideas, and get some hands on experience with the youth I hope to be working with, seeing if this is something I think I'm capable of and can do. Who knows? I might get there and go, OHMYGOSH, there's no way I can do this! This is NOT for me! Of course, I doubt that. In all honesty, I think the hardest part for me will be knowing that I can't save all of them. It will be watching those students walk away who haven't been helped by my program. THAT will be the deepest pain for me. But on the other hand, it'll all be worth it for the students who DO come away better geared for life, to be happy and successful and independent.
So I guess, my hope would be that you guys would join me in prayer, as I seek God's guidance for my life, in the short term, for the summer, for next year, and in the long-term, my college education, and ultimately the whole rest of my life. I would ask that you pray that God would keep this on my heart if it's what He desires, and if He has a different plan, that He would take this dream and take my fire for it. I ask that you pray for His guidance as I try and navigate these next years, trying to prepare for this crazy dream. And of course, that if this is where God wants me, that He would open the doors, that He would bring the people into my life necessary to make this dream come true, people with the same heart and dream and vision.
And someday, years down the road, if/when I have this thing going, you can say "Hey, I was an originator of this place. I was there from the very beginning, being one of her prayer warriors and paving the way for this place to happen."
These are my dreams for the future, hopefully GOD'S dreams for my future, and all I can think is that if these are MY dreams for this place, if this is something God truly has given me, can you imagine what GOD'S dreams for this place are? I can only think in finite terms, but God is seeing infinity, and my imagination has NOTHING on God's. So like I say, if these are my dreams for this place, the things that I want and hope and desire, can you imagine what God's got planned? Far more than I can ever even dream of.
So once again, I ask, join me in prayer, friends, and know that whoever you are, wherever you are, I am praying for you, too, that you would "grow in grace and knowledge of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. To him be glory both now and forever! Amen" (2 Peter 3:17 & 18)
Prayerfully, in Christ,
Erika Rose <3
xoxo
I've been thinking a lot over the past few weeks what the future is going to hold for me. I know that this summer, I'm going to be doing a LOT of training horses, which I'm super excited about, in addition to probably some waitressing and work for my dad. Next year, HOPEFULLY I'll be doing correspondance courses and continuing to train and work, ect. POSSIBLY. And I do stress that, because of course, nothing is certain yet. My goal, though, would be to do my school work in the morning, go to work in the after noon and evenings, and then in the winter, when it starts getting cold and there's not a lot of opportunity to be training, basically work double time and try and finish both my junior and senior years in one, and get my diploma after my would-be junior year. That summer, (Summer 2012) I want to spend in Bend, Oregon, volunteering at Crystal Peaks Youth Ranch. (Please, check 'em out!) Basically, they own mostly rescued horses, and are open year round to any and all families for sessions with staff and horses. They're also non-profit, so these families don't pay. Kim Meeder, (the co-founder, along with her husband Troy) have the COOLEST ministry there, guys. Seriously, the things they do, or rather, that God does through them, are really, REALLY cool. She's currently got two books published, Hope Rising and Bridge Called Hope, detailing some of the stories of the youth that she has worked with. They seem like really neat people. They stepped out in faith, bought a completely barren piece of property, and worked really hard to get it to a point where it was inhabitable, really. Anyway, I can't sing their praises enough, in case you couldn't tell. So I want to spend the summer volunteering there as basically a "junior" volunteer, since I'll be seventeen.
I love the ministry at Crystal Peaks, but I also want to go there and gain some experience. You see, I have this dream of starting a ranch, sort of similar to CPYR (Crystal Peaks Youth Ranch). Well, I suppose more similar to Home on the Range, really, for those of you who know what that is. Basically, I want to have a ranch for "troubled" kids. I have a HUGE heart for the kids who come from abusive families, or histories of drug and alcohol abuse. I feel that these kids, particularly in that teen range, get shuffled to the side, because they ARE challenging to work with. I am completely aware of that. I just don't feel that's a reason for them to get kicked to the curb, so to speak. They hit that age where no one will take them, because they have all these problems and issues, and that's where I want to come in.
The dream in and of itself is pretty big, but it would have to start small, just a few students. I want to eventually have separate dorms for guys and girls, with a dorm "parent" for each floor. Eventually, I would absolutely love to have an on campus school, with teachers with a strong relationship with God and experience and/or training specifically toward working with "troubled" youth. Of course, to start off, we would probably stick them into public school, which is what Home on the Range over in Sentinal Butte does.
I have so many ideas and details for this thing, you guys. It's something that's constantly growing and transforming in my mind. All the time, I keep getting more ideas, ways to really make it work, make it plausible, and of course, thinking of all the challenges that would come with starting and maintaining a place like this. The thing is, though, when I first got this crazy idea, it was just a pipe dream. I was like, "This is a really cool idea, but there is no WAY it could happen." That's starting to change though. I'm starting to see the practical ways in which it could be made to work. Like I said, it really is plausible.
I believe that this is a God-given idea, because I really have no reason to have this heart for troubled youth. It's not like I come from that background, it's not like I can relate. It's not like I even KNOW that many kids from "troubled" backgrounds. I can think of only three off the top of my head. Even so, this idea is there and constantly growing, and I have every confidence that if this IS God-given, He will open the doors that are needed.
I'm confident that if this dream is what God is willing for my life, He's going to open the doors, He's going to make it happen. He's going to bring the people into my life that I need to start this place, people with a similar heart and dream and vision. There are so many pitfalls to this idea, SO many things that can (and probably will!) go wrong, but like I said, I know if God is willing it, He WILL see it through.
On the flip side, though, if this is just a pipe dream and NOT what God has in store for me, I know it will be a flop. There is NO WAY a place like this can function without God at its heart. Because of this, I want to be absolutely, 100% certain that this IS God's call on my life, because I don't want to step out in faith, thinking, "Yeah! This is it! God's gonna do great things!" only to have everything crumble and hear Him whisper "No, I'm sending you somewhere else." If this isn't what God wants, the whole thing will just be a complete and utter failure.
Like I said, though, the more time goes on, the more ideas I start to get, the more I feel myself drawn to this ministry. I would love to spend a year at Ecola, and it would be amazing to work at Hom eon the Range for a time, to gather ideas, and get some hands on experience with the youth I hope to be working with, seeing if this is something I think I'm capable of and can do. Who knows? I might get there and go, OHMYGOSH, there's no way I can do this! This is NOT for me! Of course, I doubt that. In all honesty, I think the hardest part for me will be knowing that I can't save all of them. It will be watching those students walk away who haven't been helped by my program. THAT will be the deepest pain for me. But on the other hand, it'll all be worth it for the students who DO come away better geared for life, to be happy and successful and independent.
So I guess, my hope would be that you guys would join me in prayer, as I seek God's guidance for my life, in the short term, for the summer, for next year, and in the long-term, my college education, and ultimately the whole rest of my life. I would ask that you pray that God would keep this on my heart if it's what He desires, and if He has a different plan, that He would take this dream and take my fire for it. I ask that you pray for His guidance as I try and navigate these next years, trying to prepare for this crazy dream. And of course, that if this is where God wants me, that He would open the doors, that He would bring the people into my life necessary to make this dream come true, people with the same heart and dream and vision.
And someday, years down the road, if/when I have this thing going, you can say "Hey, I was an originator of this place. I was there from the very beginning, being one of her prayer warriors and paving the way for this place to happen."
These are my dreams for the future, hopefully GOD'S dreams for my future, and all I can think is that if these are MY dreams for this place, if this is something God truly has given me, can you imagine what GOD'S dreams for this place are? I can only think in finite terms, but God is seeing infinity, and my imagination has NOTHING on God's. So like I say, if these are my dreams for this place, the things that I want and hope and desire, can you imagine what God's got planned? Far more than I can ever even dream of.
So once again, I ask, join me in prayer, friends, and know that whoever you are, wherever you are, I am praying for you, too, that you would "grow in grace and knowledge of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. To him be glory both now and forever! Amen" (2 Peter 3:17 & 18)
Prayerfully, in Christ,
Erika Rose <3
xoxo
Tuesday, January 18, 2011
Family Units
I find it extremely vexing how many kids either loathe their parents or can't stand living with them. This whole experience with Dickinson has shown me how FEW kids actually LIKE their parents. I'm finding that I'm one of a pretty small group who actually sincerely loves my parents. I would give anything to live at home again. Well. Not anything, obviously, because it wouldn't be that hard to just drop school in Dickinson and go, but you get what I'm saying.
At any rate, a LOT of the people I talk to don't get along with their parents, can't stand them, and can't wait to move out. And in MOST cases, I honestly don't blame the kid in the slightest. And personally, I think it's a travesty!! WHAT IS HAPPENING WITH AMERICA'S PARENTS?! And I think more than that, with the FAMILY UNIT. I think this is something that's become so lost.
I feel like parents make NO effort to bond with their kids. No effort to really be part of their life. They don't even sit down to dinner anymore. And granted, we didn't ALWAYS have dinner together,we did pretty regularly, especially when I was little and Holly and Derek were still in the house. And even now, when I'm home, we always go out at least once a week. Usually on Sundays, we'd go have lunch after church.
I just feel the family unit is something that's being lost. People are so rarely a FAMILY anymore. There is no bonding, no family ties, no family loyalty. And I think it's sad. And I wish that every kid could have with their parents what I do with mine.
So. Those are the thoughts.
At any rate, a LOT of the people I talk to don't get along with their parents, can't stand them, and can't wait to move out. And in MOST cases, I honestly don't blame the kid in the slightest. And personally, I think it's a travesty!! WHAT IS HAPPENING WITH AMERICA'S PARENTS?! And I think more than that, with the FAMILY UNIT. I think this is something that's become so lost.
I feel like parents make NO effort to bond with their kids. No effort to really be part of their life. They don't even sit down to dinner anymore. And granted, we didn't ALWAYS have dinner together,we did pretty regularly, especially when I was little and Holly and Derek were still in the house. And even now, when I'm home, we always go out at least once a week. Usually on Sundays, we'd go have lunch after church.
I just feel the family unit is something that's being lost. People are so rarely a FAMILY anymore. There is no bonding, no family ties, no family loyalty. And I think it's sad. And I wish that every kid could have with their parents what I do with mine.
So. Those are the thoughts.
Saturday, January 15, 2011
Friends
So, I have come to the conclusion that I have some awfully amazing friends. And I'm realizing more and more that truly, it's not how long you've known your friends. That's truly of little importance. It's like that saying: "It's not who's been friends with you the longest, it's who's been there for you the most." My best friends, the people I count on, are people I really haven't known that long at all. One of them, not even six months. But sometimes people just click, and they sort of become instant best friends. It's not necessarily that they've proven themselves, you just KNOW they'd be there for you. That's where I'm at.
I have so many memories packed into this last school year with my new friends. Just crazyness, amazing memories. I guess I'm just so thankful for the people I have in my life right now. Thanks you guys, for being amazing. :)
xoxo,
Erika Rose
I have so many memories packed into this last school year with my new friends. Just crazyness, amazing memories. I guess I'm just so thankful for the people I have in my life right now. Thanks you guys, for being amazing. :)
xoxo,
Erika Rose
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