365

So basically I'm referring you all to my new blog. I may still put stuff up on this one once in a while. I'm not sure yet. I haven't quite decided how I'm going to go about all this. If I have a special thought for the day or whatever, I may put it up here. However, my goal is to put up a post every day for a full year. So, here's the new blog:

Erika's 365!

Hope to see you all there. =D

xoxo

i hate...

I hate when a day is going fantastically and then something happens or you have to go somewhere and it just makes you feel like crap.
I hate when I start to cry over stupid crap during practice.
I hate when I wanna bite someone's head off because it makes me feel like a complete snot.
I hate when I know how to do something but I can't do it right.
I hate when I need my friends and they feel a million miles away.
i hate when I complain.
I hate when I'm in a bad mood.

I hate when I can't explain how I feel.

2010, Here I come.

Some look at the coming chapters in our lives with fear and some with regret
All I know is I don't have time to fret

I'm way too busy running out to meet this tidal wave
Way too ready to take on this change

Whatever it might be, whatever the future brings
Come storms and rainbows, I'm finding my voice and learning to sing

A whole 'nother year is behind me
And what will be will be

And some goodbyes are hard to bear
But there will be other chapters to share

This is not the end
Just a time to see what's around the next bend

A time to grow and find ourselves
A time to put old mistakes on the shelves

We're gonna take on the world
It's me and you girl

My friend, we're putting away all fear
'Cause baby girl, this is gonna be our year

Let's make the most of it.


That is basically exactly how I feel about the coming year. Like, so much is changing, and in some ways, I kind of feel like things are falling down around my ears, but I can't help thinking that it's not a bad thing! Like, it's happening so fast, and I'm losing touch with people I thought would be around forever, but I don't feel horrible about it, because it's like, it's a new chapter in our lives. It's just where our roads are taking us, and it happens to be in separate directions, but it's not anyone's fault. And it's like, a lot of them, I just have this feeling that it's temporary; they still have a role to play in my life. But if they don't, that's okay, too.

And it's like, I don't know why this feels like such a fresh year, but I am SO ready to take it on! Like, I know it's gonna be hard, and some of it is scary. And I'm with my best friend that it feels kind of like a tidal wave coming down over my head, and it is scary, but it's gonna be such a rush, too! So much fun! I'm in this moment right before it hits and you're holding your breath and just waiting...It's a good feeling.

So 2010, here I come! Bring it on!