Well. I'm pretty proud of myself. I have faithfully kept my 365 Blog so far. Only missed one day, which, considering this is me we're talking about, is doing pretty well! If I do say so myself. lol. Basically, I feel like writing tonight, though, so I wanted to do something a little extra. haha.
I was just looking through Mrs. Pelis's photos (momma to my friends Brian and Danny) and came across some older pictures of Danny Boi. Brought back a whole slew of memories. Haha.
I just read a book by Sarah Dessen called "That Summer" and it's about this fifteen year old girl who can basically trace back all these sudden changes in her life to that one summer. Looking back now, the summer that Brian and Danny were up here was probably one of the greatest summers ever. It was so great to have a whole group of friends right at my fingertips. Like, sure, I've always been part of the school crowd, but I wasn't IN. It was like, that summer I had a gang all my own. Haha. Riding with Danny across the Airdome to Marisa's. Going to the House Bunny with a huge group of people. Heather randomly bursting out with "THAT'S WHERE HE LEARNED IT!" Sarah snitching drinks of Danny's milkshakes. Ha. Sitting up at the camper that last day just chilling out and trying not to roast. Haha. That was a great summer.
And the summer before that, meeting up with Sarah. Countless rides with her and Kali. Falling off Vegas in my English saddle. Falling off Filea bareback. ALMOST falling off Filea bareback when Ethan came out of the grass and spooked her. "FiLEEa!" Haha. Good memories.
It's funny how it seems like the best times of my life have been marked by summers. Horse shows, the trip to Missouri for Ben and Heather's wedding. (was in the springtime, but still) Seems like everything is marked by summers. That is our time, when everything important happens, it seems. All the biggest changes seem to come in the summer, or a little before. Sarah coming. Sarah leaving. Holly's wedding. Seems like all the major turning points are near that one season. Maybe that's why I love spring so much. Not just for the new grass smell and the feeling that everything is coming alive. And the mud. But because I know something new and exciting has to be just around the corner.
It's funny how I've only been alive for fifteen years, but I already have SO many memories crammed into that short amount of time. Good and bad, important and minor. I know life is jam packed with heartache, as it seems I've already discovered, to an extent, but there is so much out there left to discover. I'm not sure why I'm in such a sentimental mood tonight, but I Just have this feeling like the whole world is stretched out before my feet. Sarah and I have decided that so many things are changing, and changing fast, but I've learned that change is inevitable. It will come, whether I want it to or not, and no amount of fear or wishing or hoping or praying will stop that; it's part of life. The best thing we can do is face it head on. And for some reason, I have a feeling that things are changing, and changing FAST, but I'm running out to embrace them.
I've already made tons of memories that well last me forever, but I've only got fifteen candles on the cake, fifteen years' worth of memories; I can't wait to make a lifetime of them. <3
xoxo,
Erika Rose
